CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
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What was/is your childhood ambition?
As a child, I had a few ambitions. However, my ambitions weren’t really that similar to other children’s, to those who were the same age as me. I wanted to make money, be respected, and have a secure job. Secure in the sense that I wouldn’t be eliminated from it as time progressed because of technological development. I really wasn’t that fussed about marrying, or anything like that, but I wanted a job, and I wanted that job to pay well and be secure. Why? Because I knew that, if I had that, then I would be safe, and set for life.
When my parents were killed, and I saw the crime scene investigators come in to comb through my house, I knew then, that that was what I wanted to do. And I set out to do it, I got top marks in all my studies, in all my courses, and so on and so forth, and I got there. I achieved my childhood dream, my childhood goal, I got myself a respectable, secure, well paying job. The pay isn’t that great, but it’s sufficient enough to fund my lifestyle and have some left over as well for other things, extra expenses.
If you want something badly enough, then you have to sacrifice many things to get it. When I knew I wanted to become a CSI, I knew another thing as well, that I would have to sacrifice certain things. Instead of partying, I studied for exams and for tests, for practicals and for assignments. Instead of dating, much, if any at all, I attended seminars, talks, conventions, lectures and gatherings. When I started to go bald, I didn’t stress over it as I suspect many men do, I just got on with life. Many of the things I should have worried about in life, like love, and youth, I didn’t really worry about, because as long as I was doing what I wanted to, I was enjoying myself, and that was all that mattered.
Michelle changed that a bit, she shook me up, and I actually started to, care, about how I might look to someone of the opposite sex, in order to make them notice me. I wanted her to notice me, and, very quickly, she did, just as I had done previously. Very quickly indeed, and then, we were off, soaring through the stars and around the universe without a care in the world.
When I was a child, all I wanted was a job, and when I got that job, and Michelle, I felt complete. Now that I’ve lost her, all I want is to hold her in my arms again. But I can’t, no, I can’t, and because of that, all I can do is leave roses on her grave. It’s true, that you never know how much you have, until it’s gone. Because I love her when she was alive, I love her every single day, and when she died, I’ve missed her, and loved her, every single day since.