October 10th, 2004

Theatrical Muse: Week 1: Question 1

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 407


Do you feel that you were born with a predetermined role in society? If so, how do you feel about it?


No. Why? Because if I was born with a predetermined role in society I would know it and then the answer to this incompetent question would be more to your “whims” and “fancies.” The fact that I answered negatively blatantly simple if you would care to take your head out of your ethereal little surroundings and look at the cold hard facts. Many things have happened over the span of the last 41 years that have concerned myself in some way or another that have not been the most pleasant happenings I have watched. I do not say witnessed because I was not there when they occurred, merely I happened to be present in the aftermath, one time I even dealt with what happened, dug my hands right deep into covers that made up that small period of time in my life. If you were there, living in Las Vegas 41 years ago then maybe you would know what happened and I swear anybody who was who has the slightest chance of uncovering and idiotically blurting out what happened in the past has been told how they are to handle the matter. I expect those who were not there to not try and find out what has shaped the answer to this question for I have far more than enough means to push the trouble back on them ten fold. Grissom, well, he raises the reputation of the lab and the stature of myself, but me, what I do, I keep it in order. Hell, I got the position of Supervisor a year before he even got his royal little ass on the seat and only then because Brass stuffed up and got moved down because Brown stuffed up and got Gribbs killed.

Thing is, I am conscious; I know that I wasn’t born to grow up and become something; I knew all along I had to work for it. Life is not predetermined because people stuff up, if it was, things would be balanced, the world would still be the same but nobody could stop something from happening no matter how much they say they should have afterwards. Although people may seem to have that mentality now even, cold, hard statistics prove many of these infantile assumptions wrong. The chance of a raindrop falling and landing on a certain area of land in a certain way after a certain amount of movement, ever changing and endless.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 2: Question 2

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 309


What is your New Year's Resolution?


Please, what do you think I am? Some fresh young college graduate who thinks that because he has given himself goals he is going to get somewhere? I give myself goals, namely to get through the shift without getting my head blown off. I also take a shot of brandy on my day off, wash my socks and keep my desk tidy. One thing I do not do is give myself false hopes, if I’m going to expect something, make a “resolution” I have to have fact behind it, absolute confirmation that it will occur. There would be no use making this half witted promise to myself because firstly I don’t want to do it and secondly because things change. No matter how realistic the original “resolution” may be the variables pertaining to it over the space of a year are going to move, some will disappear and some, well, some will become useless.

I mean if it was a life or death situation and god forbid I don’t want to see the day when someone has their life threatened because they will not make a “New Year's Resolution” then I would make one. Something like, I want to breathe air for every day of the following year. It sounds stupid, surely, but nothing can change for that, the air that we breathe will not change into hydrogen and I will not become a fish. Now that is explained, It is simple, I do not make myself false promises that I know I can not keep, if I have to expect anything I try to expect the worse because then I will not be disappointed. Now really, if we all gave ourselves these blasted “resolutions”, no matter how much good will or cheer involved it would be and still is a meaningless and useless waste of perfectly good time.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 3: Question 3

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 501


Is there ever a good reason to get blinding drunk?


No, there is no reason for anybody let alone myself to get “blindingly” drunk. Why? Because when the facts are boiled down, no person should consume so much alcohol because as it wears on and they become more intoxicated it becomes an even more selfish act. I am lead to inform you that not all, but quite a few of the vast number of cases I have handled in the past leading up to the ones I am working on now have been caused as a direct result of alcohol. If the stuff didn’t exist my job would be a lot more easier but, it does and although you may disagree with what I say next, really, I don’t give a damn. If alcohol didn’t exist then even though my job would be a heck of a lot easier I also wouldn’t have a job or much of it anyway because the amount of homicide and quite possibly suicide victims would suffer a dramatic reduction in numbers. It is people’s choice to drink alcoholic beverages and then to deal with the results and what happens at the end, it’s my job to clean up after them and piece together what happened if anything goes wrong.

If people die with some connection to alcohol, whether it be drink driving, turning a gun on someone while under the influence, whatever way the death happens it does not matter. I deal with it; if they did not die I would not. It is not my fault for taking this view, that if people die because of alcohol it keeps me in a job because it does. I am not grateful for it, I do not enjoy the fact that people are stupid enough to go that far but at the end of the day the facts are there and it does no matter how you go about it. Despite the fact that our police service does everything it can to warn people of the risks of alcohol they still die, everyday quite possibly, all around the world. We do everything we can to prevent alcohol related deaths from happening, the people who drink and die, who in the end wind up as these statistics we try to show them, there is no going back from that. It is simply their actions, their own fault.

Going back to the original question, I’m not going to because I’ve explained more than enough on why no person should become so idiotic. What separates the responsible and living from the alcohol related deaths is knowledge. I myself have never been drunk, I am responsible for my actions, I have never joined in a silly drinking competition yet I still manage to drink alcohol and stay alive. I like my brandy straight and in a shot glass, yet unlike those who I see everyday on the autopsy table because they had one drink to many or got the end of someone who had I have the knowledge they didn’t.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 4: Question 4

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 520


Do you believe in love at first sight?


Before I answer I will tell you lot one thing, this is priceless because the words that follow in this particular “answer” will be burnt as soon as pen leaves the paper on the final word. Why I am even writing this, to tell those who will never read it? Because it will be in my head, not in the exact words but the memories, the past will still be there. I am answering this truthfully because I can not deny what happened between myself and my wife, I can not deny it because then I would be denying her of everything that ever happened in that time….. I believe in love at first sight, not absolutely though but it is still possible. I remember the first time I bumped into her, there was no electricity what so ever, there was a god dammed thunderstorm. Like any typical ass off the Nightshift team she chose to pick fights with me, thinking that I got things wrong when I didn’t, always correcting if she got a chance. Even though we were on opposite shifts she somehow managed to find a way and so did I. I never did it intentionally, and in the start neither did Michelle. We fought so hard against each other, struggled to defiantly to win the battle for our side that we walked past what was happening and eventually we stopped and walked back, picking up the broken pieces.

It was magical I can tell you that, that moment, that first kiss from her, it was also the first kiss I had ever received from a woman that wasn’t my mother or aunt. I finally saw the point to the whole kissing game that teenage movies revolved around. Or at least I saw it for a brief moment, every second of that moment though was magical, the way she’d call me all the names under the sun during the times at work and try so hard to mean every word of it and then back at home, the way her hand would cup the back of my head when we engaged in a battle between the lips. The way she meant every word when she said I do and Grissom just had to stand by the sidelines and watch it all happen, not a word he could say could have stopped it because the relationship was cleared. She gave me back what I had lost and eventually I lost it again.

Once I honestly believed that love at first sight was halfway possible and I had it happen to me, now, as I watch this letter burn I can assure you I am reflecting on the matter. Do I believe anymore, somewhere, I must think the same thing because I can not deny what happened, yet I do not know if that shred of thought even exists anymore so I can give you no definite answer. At this current moment, in order to tell you the absolute truth, I know it is possible, but, I do not think it is going to happen, to me at least.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 5: Question 5

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 323


What's more important - self preservation or forgiveness


As I have learned self preservation is the more important thing. I can not forgive people in my job for what they do. At the end of the day I can not forgive a man who has killed his family because my job does not allow forgiveness and I as myself would not give it anyway. I am not a forgiving man; I don’t forgive murderers and the same goes of CSIs who make mistakes. For the latter at least I will not become soppy with forgiveness, I will forgive them if they earn it and only then if I think if it is the right thing to do. Even then if they are forgiven for whatever blunder they make I am not one to let them off lightly, people need to be taught a lesson, disciplined with negative reinforcement if they make a mistake and it’s going to do me any good if I come across like a fresh picked pansy and let them off with a cautionary word.

Self preservation is important because to be in the job I do you have to be careful, preserve yourself from possible harm because it can and will come at any given moment. You never know when it will happen or even if it will happen, and you can try and pinpoint a possible time of occurrence but you can never know exactly when until the harm is done. Instead of forgiving a murderer for whatever reason there may be and letting your guard down it is better to preserve yourself and always keep your guard up. It is better in my view to take care of yourself over forgiving someone who has turned on someone already and could turn on you next. Simply because it is a survival game, life, those who die are not weak; they are just unfortunate, if you are experienced in the game however you have the upper hand.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 6: Question 6

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 298


How did you lose your virginity?


Full stop, I have not had sexual intercourse.

The Merriam-Webster Medical Dictionary defines Sex, namely sexual intercourse as the following:

Main Entry: sexual intercourse
Function: noun
1: heterosexual intercourse involving penetration of the vagina by the penis : COITUS
2: intercourse involving genital contact between individuals other than penetration of the vagina by the penis

I have done neither in any shape, way or form. Honestly I don’t really intend to, my wife and I were never interested in sex, firstly, and secondly we never had the time let alone the desire. Both myself and her found kissing quite satisfactory along with the small amounts of fondling that could be expected from such a couple as we were. By law a person is allowed to have sex once they are 16, I’m 49, 33 years past that date and nothing has tempted me to what is an illusionistic pleasure. People have killed for love, I feel no desire to express my love to a woman through sexual intercourse, I expressed it to my wife by merely being there most of the time. To me, it is a pointless venture, I would gain nothing from it for I do not intend to have children, I do not intend to become sexually active, I do not have the same desire to lose my virginity that some hormonally charged young men do for I am far past that stage alone. Merely I see no point for myself, in this matter at least, to do an act in which doing something would do nothing as an end result. Some people wish to lose their supposed “innocence” when they turn “sweet sixteen”, some lose it before then. Me, I do not want to lose it because I see no reason to have to.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 7: Question 7

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 473


What's your favorite guilty indulgence?


Guilty? Indulgence? Before I even get started my pleasure is not a guilty one, I do not suffer and guilt related feelings as a result of doing it. Hell, sometimes I think I’ve even lost the pleasure, I know how to do it, I sometimes do it but when I do, do it that is, the same excitement I had with her, with a few other ways of doing it, I honestly don’t think it’s there anymore because I can’t feel it. If it is there, it’s hidden, nothing ever goes thus it is there but I can not feel it so it has become meaningless, possibly. My pleasure lies in the dance, surprising for a man of my calibre to say that? Precisely why the pleasure has been lost quite possibly. I do not dance as often as I used to, in fact my whole dancing “career” can be divided up into equal quarters, first quarter is when I started my lessons, second quarter is when I took it as an extra university subject and passed with flying high colours, third quarter is when I danced with Michelle and the fourth and final quarter is where I am now and have been for the past 19 years. I have to be polite to women because it is how I was brought up to be, thus unless the situation is threatening or inappropriate in any terms I can not or try not to deny one a dance.

To think back on how it used to feel during the first three quarters, dancing in every single form was an enthralling, an exhilarating, a natural high, an outlet, all contained in a small ball inside myself. I hated taking the subject; it meant staying after school with a woman who insisted that prancing around like a twit was what my guardian was paying for. I can’t exactly say that as I matured I lost all of the resentment I held for it, it became a grudge that lessened sometimes to disappear completely and ten come back on full force. What I can say though is that I can do it well, and it is at times an outlet if the time is right and sometimes I enjoy it both as a sport and as a leisurely hobby. My knowledge of the subject is unparalleled to Grissom’s, anything on dancing I know the who’s, the what’s, the where’s, the when’s the why’s and even the how’s of it and if it is a type of dancing I can preform it at the highest expert level. People require a lifetime to become good dancers, those people who wish to learn it and make sure they know everything can shorten what might be a whole life worth of things into some decades, in my case about 40 years.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 8: Question 8

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 386


If you could have dinner with anyone in all of history, who would it be, and why?


My aunt naturally. Fortunately I don’t believe in hoping for what can not happen if a person expects the worst of something then they can never be disappointed. My aunt is not the worst of something though; she is just merely the person I would choose to have dinner with out of anybody in all of history. For dinner only lasts for half an hour, an hour at the longest and then people depart and go their separate ways. If I choose my wife, or my mother, or my father then eventually they would go back to where they came from, which would be their graves at the church near my house. Even if they were flesh and bone people at the dining experience they would still go back so there is no point in experiencing what you can not keep or see again. With her at the current moment Agatha is still alive and for the moment I don’t have to know that when I leave the dinner table after sharing a meal with her that it is definite that I will never see her again. Of course, my aunt is well into life, but she has no less zest for it than somebody does in their prime, she’s, a strong willed fighter. She has been annoying sometimes throughout the course of her continuing watch over me, though once we resolved the matters it was not annoying merely stubbornness on both sides.

Having nobody else to share a meal with is another reason why I would have dinner with her above anybody else for we know what to expect of each other and what the other can give to the situation, thus there are no large surprises or uncomfortable silences, just an agreeable situation. We get along well, and there is always something to talk about couped with the fact that whether we like it or not we’re the only person each other has. I could disagree sometimes about liking that woman’s company, never for long though, she doesn’t allow disobedience on my part so if I put up a stubborn front it would be no use in holding it because she would find some way to tear it down and press up close against whatever is preventing me from being fully there for herself.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 9: Question 9

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 317


What makes you laugh?


Nothing, really I don’t know what type of question this might be put under. Stupid or idiotic are both equally good titles for files in a cabinet to put them in. If you look back and watch what I do closely you might learn something of you work the few brain cells you have at your disposal. My profession as a CSI does not allow laughter, if I laughed at a murder scene not only would my ass be out the Laboratories doors faster than I could say Microsil and then there would be the extra burden of a possible psychological report to be undertaken to determine whether I had cracked or not. None of which would be necessary because if I ever happened to “slip up” and “laugh” at a crime scene which mind you I never would there would be some feasible logic reason to why such a thing would occur.

Despite that fact my life forces a no laughing policy upon myself I find nothing worthwhile to laugh about at any given time of the day or night, with the exception of Grissom and his temper. That amuses me, the way the man so easily loses his cool, but it is not real laughter as I suspect this question is asking. Laughing at the man is not done for mere idiotic pleasure, I revel in the fact that the man is so short fused, almost to a point where he could and most likely has on numerous occasions called something he should have thought about twice before saying. The man is an endless source of mediocre and solemn entertainment, the way he actually thinks things are going to work out all right in the end. But truly, there is nothing to laugh at, the world provides nothing and thus I do not laugh for there is nothing and no reason to do as such.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 10: Question 10

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 350


What do you want on your tombstone - and why?


It almost seems coincidental this question, I mean god forbid there will be nobody to think up a “nice” and gaily soppy quotation on my headstone. By the time I die, which will be no time soon I assure you, the remaining family that I have at this moment, which would be just my aunt, will be dead. Because of which, the job of organising what happens on the occasion that I do die and do have a grave with a headstone to put something on will be left up to me and not be the responsibility of some other future, equal or older generation. At any given time I would not have it otherwise if that situation occurred which it will in the distant future because unlike anybody else in this entire god forsaken place called Las Vegas my aunt is the only one I think worthy enough of handling such a task. No matter how futile or unimportant she would make it so that I would have thought it right had if I had a say in things.

If I did have to chose my epitaph, which is the more likely thing to happen I would choose it years ahead, not now but sometime when I know within the next decade I would die, simply to get it out of the way and not leave it to some gangly headed lawyer who would clear up some of the matters concerning my death or whoever else might get a grab chance at giving me my last “final” words to the world. Personally I would rather have a blank tombstone, devoid of everything except my full name and birth date but if it happens that for some reason that decision changes within the next fifty or so odd years I will do one thing. I will give this answer so that if anybody nosey decides to come snooping around my personal life with inconsiderate and brainless questions similar to this one I can withhold the answer from them.

“History has been a great teacher, there has been nothing greater since.”
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Theatrical Muse: Week 11: Question 11

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 428


What is your favorite daydream, and why?


I don’t daydream. End of question. I have no reason to daydream. In my job as a CSI and Supervisor of shift at that there is no time to simply drift of to think of whims and fancies. Even if I had any of these supposed ingredients to day dream then I still wouldn’t, the entire concept of the activity let alone the activity itself is a complete waste of time. People who daydream as I have learnt are unambitious and fail in their given or possibly assigned tasks, whether it be the task of thought or of action, daydreaming turns the mind numb amongst the fact that it is a selfish, self absorbed activity. If a person is processing evidence then it is going to be no help to the victim or its relatives if that said person drifts off to think of something significant to personal relaxation or possible personal gain. It will only help the murderer and that is the least wanted thing in any CSI’s mind, for if we, as public servants, fail to do our job then it can and most likely will be put at stake. A prime example to back up my point comes from Thomas Merton, a monk, poet and spiritual writer who lived from 1915 to 1968. He said “A daydream is an evasion.” which is precise in saying that by engorging themselves in a daydream a person is only evading something; if we daydream we are evading whatever it is we are meant to be doing. Evasion in my job is selfishness, a murderer murders to evade something or someone, if a daydream has the same results then it is hardly any different.

If a person stops in the middle of their work and begins to “chase rabbits” then they run chances of tripping up. Sidle for example, even the entire Dayshift knows of her lovers spat between herself and Grissom. They are both daydreamers, consumed in their own personal life and goals that they deviate to often from their work. Which is why my team always, comes out on top. Other people fill their spare hours with daydreams of a better life instead of working but al the same it still leads to the same point. Daydreams are and always will be a complete waste of time in either given way shape or form. Besides, a person has to live and act in the present and not in “what ifs” and what “if onlys” to be successful so, why pursue something that never gives any immediate gratification?
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Theatrical Muse: Week 12: Question 12

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 348


Hearing, Sight, Taste, Touch, and Smell. The five senses. Which would be the worst one for you to lose, and why?


Sight, a CSI can not function without their sight. Although, with Grissom, and his “little” hearing loss episode it seemed he could not function well without his hearing but then again, he should have been more prepared if he knew the already present risks and consequences. Why sight would be the worst thing for me to lose? Please, really, I though people were smarter than that. As I have said a CSI can not function without their sight, there is no possible way I, in a job such as the one I am in with such a high rank as I have, could continue working if loss of sight was involved. Everyday I have to sit down and process whatever cases I put myself on, just like every other god damned person I work with I have to carefully scrutinise, with my eyes, the evidence for clues. If I completely lost my sight I could not preform such a function, work would have lost all functionality if I could not see the very object I was holding before me or running under a microscope.

It would be highly absurd if I had a high profile case, or any case at that with the Sheriff ringing me every half an hour to every five minutes, when all the while I could not even see the crime scene I was examining. But why exactly I chose sight as the worst sense to lose, other than I would be rendered incapable of performing my job? It is the worst sense to lose for myself just because of that and the fact that even if I lost my hearing, taste, touch or smell I could still function as a Crime Scene Investigator and as Supervisor of the Dayshift. Sight, if lost, is the only sense that would make me unable to do my job. As a CSI I have to find that there is more to this story than meets the blind-eye, it would be no help what so ever if I was blind myself instead it would be a huge hindrance.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 13: Question 13

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 482


If you were left on a desert island, what three things would you take along?


In the interest of being sensible, I am not going to bring along a deck chair, a good book and a drink of lemonade. In the interest of survival on this hypothetical little situation which I am forcibly making myself answer I would take these following three things. Firstly I would bring along an Emergency position-indicating rescue beacon (EPIRB) which when carried by a person is called a personal locator beacon (PLB). Secondly I would take a 5 gallon drum of water and thirdly a fully loaded gun, such as the one I carry on my person right now for I know it is capable of ending a life. Now, to elongate on this currently simplistic answer I will give the reasons for the reason why I chose these three things as to speed the coming of the end to this activity quicker and save any further questions from being asked. I did choose to list my three chosen items in the order of which I would use them so even a simple minded fool can make sense of this answer.

If I was left on a desert island with those three items I would firstly manually activate the EPIRB, an EPIRB being a small radio transmitter which some satellites and aircraft can use locate people or boats needing rescue before going to the task of waiting. If functioning which it certainly would be along with being registered, the beacon from the device would transmit to a satellite. The satellite then transmits the beacon's data, including location, to its ground control station. The satellite's ground station then forwards the data to a national authority. The national authority further more forwards the data to a rescuing authority. The rescuing authority then makes the rescue. Once the satellite data is in, the actual forwarding processes are less than a minute to any signatory nation.

If that may fail and god forbid it wouldn’t even under some of the most twisted situations then I would slowly ration out the water until I use it all. If the authorities have still failed me by that time by not coming to my hopefully near immediate or near otherwise rescue I would check to see if the gun was operational by firing a bullet away from myself in a clear area and then wait further more until it was certain I would die. Then, most simply and wisely, I would shoot myself since it is a quicker way to die than sit around waiting any longer than I had been. With this of course being a hypothetical situation I will add one note, I really am not that stupid to let myself get into such a situation and if by some sick twist of fate I did end up with the three items that I have listed above I would follow that process and not deviate from it.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 14: Question 14

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 434


What is the most important decision you've made in your life and why?


The most important decision I have ever made in my life was to get on with it. There are decisions of equal importance, such as deciding to apply myself to my studies as both a school and a university student, deciding to become a CSI, to take care of my aunt, no matter what and maybe even to actually marry my wife but they all stem from that one decision. My past has not dealt me many cards which under a common, uneducated eye could be deemed as good happenings, instead it has given me many cards which to the same type of eye can be called bad or even awful happenings. Although I am not going to divulge such information to you on these occurrences I will lead this writing in a different direction by giving my reasons for my decision, something which, although different from just the plain, basic, hard facts shares some likewise similarities with what it puts forth. I have had to get on with my life because if I did not the consequences would have been highly unsatisfactory; if I had stopped and given up on life when I was younger then I would not be where I am today. Even after I assured my position as a CSI with a steady rising rank I still had to get on with my life despite what had happened in the long gone past along with the more recent past happenings.

Because of this determination I gained the position as Supervisor a year clear of Grissom and because I had worked for it, not let one of my co-workers be the catalyst for the death of another. No Dayshift personnel ever under my jurisdiction let alone for that matter the Nightshift I have been unfortunate enough to be forced to briefly take care of has ever died. Surely there have been minor mishaps when the police tramp all over the scene without taking proper precautions but the Dayshift record is as clean as the people who work it’s hours and take it’s title in their rank. Getting on with my life has served me well because I have not wallowed in the self pity of what might be called a disaster stricken existence or any other emotion that might be associated or expected, instead I have learned from it, use it’s examples to become stronger and smarter. Unlike some who have been placed in possibly similar situations I have made the right decision by continuing without letting it affect the way I live my life or deal with what it presents.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 15: Question 15

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 717


If you could change one moment in your past, what would it be?


There are two moments, in my past, that if I had to choose two I would change but given that this question states I may only one I will choose neither of them along with the fact that I do not entertain the idea of changing the past. Even if it was possible and I was given one or even two chances to do it, despite the fact I might want to in the deepest unconscious thoughts I still would not. Changing the past is a fickle thing for major events, if I changed major events in my life, in the not so long gone past or the even longer gone past then that would have an affect on events after that time, whether I like it or not. One simple description of the butterfly effect states that “The Butterfly Effect reflects how changes on the small scale affect things on the large scale. It is the classic example of chaos, as small changes lead to large changes.” So taking that into account along with the Chaos Theory itself it can then be applied to a person changing something that happens in their past. Along with the following definition of the Chaos Theory goes to prove my recent point and one I will make further on.


Chaos Theory:

Chaos theory describes complex motion and the dynamics of sensitive systems. Chaotic systems are mathematically deterministic but nearly impossible to predict. Chaos is more evident in long-term systems than in short-term systems. Behaviour in chaotic systems is aperiodic, meaning that no variable describing the state of the system undergoes a regular repetition of values. A chaotic system can actually evolve in a way that appears to be smooth and ordered, however. Chaos refers to the issue of whether or not it is possible to make accurate long-term predictions of any system if the initial conditions are known to an accurate degree.

Along with that definition of the Chaos Theory and the simplistic definition of the Butterfly effect it is a popular entertained thought that if a person goes back in time and backs a change to the past, then it will affect their future and that any change at all in the past creates a different future on a varying scale. A varying scale being that if a person goes back into the past and makes a change to it, that change can make a slight impact or greater one and a possible greater and greater affect further down the time line. Being armed with this knowledge is only a partial player in the making of my decision. I know that if I went back and changed something in the past willy nilly that it would affect that future in some way which could lead to a worse or better future for myself. The other part in making my decision is that, I am quite satisfied with my life right now, I am not such a pitifully sad person that I want to go back in time and make a change to it for my own personal and emotional gain. Yes, at times I do think that if something had happened possibly my life would be better off but I am soon to correct myself for such brainless thoughts.

With my job, changing the past could come in handy to some but not myself, if a person didn’t get murdered then that is one less person I have to deal with, if time travel could stop all murders then I would be out of a job. I like my work as a public servant, I find it satisfying. If a person lives in ifs and buts of their past then their time at the current moment will pass before them, if they travel back in time then it will still not change everything to the best way again for sadness will still happen, either way they would end up regretting either decision of living in the past or changing it. If I went back to change my own past there could be many cataclysmic things that could happen, being that I am quite satisfied with my current way of life I wouldn’t take the risk to go on such an idiotic venture let alone entertain the thought of it.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 16: Question 16

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 526


How do you handle confrontations?


I handle confrontations in a completely normal and appropriate manner, losing my temper at any given time of the day and night is not an option unlike some certain people such as Grissom. Unlike him, I would not, ever, lose my temper over even the most simplistic or complex thing. Instead I would handle it the way I have been educated to, I would carry out any necessary preparations and when that is done I would handle the actual by processing it with many qualities which my “co-worker” lacks at certain times. The situation however defiant or hostile towards myself or the person I might be protecting would be dealt with in a diplomatic, careful and intelligent manner especially in area of how I would act towards my accuser. Some people like to entertain the idea that I am dumb as a post after the even in which Grissom opened up and solved a case which I had already closed and certified as solved. It is not my fault that the witness had surmounting evidence against him yet despite that chose to protect himself instead of bringing justice to the whole situation. It was a very sad mess that case, he had evidence stacked against him and I had put the man in jail and then I have to deal with this confrontation with Grissom where the man tells me that he is reopening the case on the basis that the suspect eventually has decides to “fess” up to his crime. Fortunately in both cases, the question of my intelligence as a CSI when it is more than obvious I could and often do triumph over most of the simple minded people that try to accuse me and in that confrontation between myself and Grissom, which mind, ended in him smashing a coffee pot from my hand I have handled myself appropriately. In both cases I made the only right decision which was to handle them by not losing my temper and thinking the evidence through thoroughly before delivering my final decision and thoughts on the matter which was and always is the most correct one.

If I am dealing with a confrontational case, for example a rogue family member who comes in to seek justice of their own in the case of a loved one’s death then I am the one who has to confront them right back. Even if that does mean being defiant and hostile, I can not change the evidence on a whim of someone who thinks that they are correct when I have several years of education to prove them wrong and that I am in fact right on whatever matter we may be debating. If not that type of situation those two things, hostility and defiance are both qualities that a confrontation holds and both that in my profession have to be used no matter what type of confrontation it may be, it has to be handled with them. Also it has to be taken care of with other appropriate actions such as politeness, diplomacy towards the accuser and generally handling the situation as it needs to be handled, sensibly.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 17: Question 17

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 579


What is the oddest gift you have been given?


This really is getting highly repetitive, boring and tiring, I mean really, what? The oddest gift I have ever been given? Jesus give me a bloody break on this one, I need to go and take leave of this mind numbing idiotic activity before I start succumbing to it brainlessness. Then, in the act of finally and certainly getting the never ceasing activity of this ongoing questioning to come to a final closing end I shall answer the question anyway. The oddest gift that I have ever been given to date is the gift of life, I will mention that I am only terming it as a gift for the duration of this answer for it is more a lesson, a time of learning than a time to be frivolous in one’s experiences. Given that I am now half a decade away from being half a centaury old I have learnt many things during my time on Earth. Life has taught me that by giving me the gift, moreover the chance to live I must live and continue to do so no matter what it might try to through in my way. I must continue doing my job as a public servant because it is what I do and not get attached to people who have involvement in it. Whether they be victims, family, co-workers or even murders. Everything has to keep going onwards, passing through, by and around myself because that is what this “gift” of life does. It has to keep going because it can not stop or slow down. What makes this gift so odd is the fact that life is odd, if a person choses to term it as such. It deals many mishaps and then teaches one that they must either be strong or be weak when all the while it has yet to provide a definite solution to the problem.

Happenings in life are odd and those which are out of the norm are told that they are different, they are outed yet they still group together. I don’t like such people, they make for trouble because those who think their difference and their power is above all other’s difference and power are the people who murder. A murderer play a game of dice with another person’s life, where they have one dice with six sides, each with the number six on them while the other also has a six sided dice but with only with the number one on each side and the objective of the game is to roll the highest number. One person will always lose and that is the victim, and one will always be the victor and that is the murderer, even with the slight off chance that the dice may get switched and there is no murder a person still may be accused. What makes life even odder is that it is simply life, a world created unto itself, to create things to which it provides no answer and answers which have no question amongst the other various combinations of the two. For myself, life is odd, if it has to be deemed as such although I more prefer the description of unusual and it often doesn’t go the way I intend to, but I am such an able person that I can adapt and by using my brain, sometimes manipulate what is happening to make the situation when appropriate and right to lean in my favour.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 18: Question 18

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 393


If you could live anywhere, where would you and why?


If I could live anywhere I would continue to live right where I am, in the very same house, in the very exact same lifestyle with the very same past and in the very same city of Las Vegas as I am in now. Being that once again I am quite happy with my current situation and my way of being in that situation I would choose over anywhere else to stay where I was born and bred. This is not because I have many or any loyalty ties lying in this “City of Sin” but just as I have said I am satisfied with my life and always striving to move upwards with what I have been given to do so with. People who are not satisfied with their life lack the ambition I have and never make it as far in living because they are not satisfied with what they are given to live their life as I am, they try to change it so much that they obstruct or completely obliterate their view of whatever bigger goal there is for them.

The key to success is said to be determination, I agree, I do not lack determination, those who think what they own is unsatisfactory lack determination because they are always trying to make it different or “better” in their view. In actual fact there is not many other reasons, not that there should be, for me to stay as I am, I am satisfied and happy and that is that. My family lives in Las Vegas and I am, for my aunt only, a family man, I have dedicated myself completely to take care of her in return for the favour she did in taking care of me when I was younger and unable at that time to completely preform such a task alone. So now that she is older and I am completely dependable on myself I am obligated to return the favour she so kindly bestowed upon me, even if it is tedious from time to time. That is it, my reasons for not choosing to live anywhere else, satisfaction, happiness, obligation and the fact that I have never and will never have the urge to differentiate from that past to move somewhere else and risk not having life as well off as I have it currently.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 19: Question 19

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 307


What's better: democracy or monarchy?


A democracy is better as opposed to a monarchy because a democratic nation such as the widely successful and prosperous nation of America functions better than a place under a monarchic rule. This is because a democracy is better for the people, no matter how equally good a well behaved monarchic reign may be, a democratic one is for the people and by the people that it has jurisdiction over. A monarchy is headed by a ruler, one who reigns over a state or territory, often for life, usually by hereditary right, whereas a democracy is headed over by a leader who has been elected by the people by a regulated and ordered system of voting.

I would rather my country did not have a leader who gained his or her position by hereditary rights but on rather on what they promise, before election, to do for the people that they are striving to be leader of and furthermore if elected who would act on their words. This is because the leader of a democracy has fairly received the majority of the votes, the votes being the preferences of the people, while a monarchy has a ruler that is not voted on and who just gains their position. Even though that ruler does not have absolute power over the country unless something on a major scale happens it is always going to be the same monarchic family, ruling over the same country. Unlike a monarchic leader, the democratic leader every few years is subject to change, after a vote, for better or for worse and through the years many different people will be the leader of the country under that particular democratic rule. In my case I can always know there will be a fair system and a fair president of America because of this fair democracy.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 20: Question 20

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 356


What would your life be, if it were a movie? Comedy, horror, drama sci-fi? And who would play you?


My life as a movie, so you’re what? Trying to be dramatically entertaining now? Please, the potential this has is about as entertaining as watching paint dry. But, if I must, I’ll “entertain” your simple minded little brain and answer this god dammed awful question. A movie in documentary format which timelines my life from beginning to the current moment. If some idiot came up with the concept and by procedure had to ask me for permission to make such an abomination, I would not allow the supposed movie to be made. Why? Because my life is private and I am going to keep it that way. There is nobody I am in contact with, with the exception of my aunt, that I would want to know about my past, let alone the whole world knowing about it because it was gossiped all over the illuminated “silver screen.” Further more, it would not be a comedy movie, a drama movie, a horror movie or even a science fiction movie for a documentary is neither, if anything it is a book put into life.

Following along this hypothetical, “what if?” theory you seem to have going here I’ll tell you who I would choose, if anybody to play myself, knowing that no bloody actor picked out of the fabricated world that is Hollywood could possibly get it right. I would choose, well, Pete Postlethwaite would play me, hypothetically of course. Why? Please, once again, this is getting repetitive. I mean really, this has been going on and on and on and on, it’s really getting quite tedious. He would play me because the man can act, the job would still be unfit of course but unlike some of the people out there, let’s just say for example’s sake, that Will Smith person amongst others, he could act the part and might do a sub standard job of it. I’m actually not going to say anymore on this matter, it’s completely unnecessary but hell I’ll leave you with this, for fucks sake get some original ideas. You sound like a repetitive three year old with a speech defect.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 21: Question 21

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 543


What is good and what is evil?


I could say Grissom is evil, but somehow, I really don’t think he even deserves such a credible title, we’re CSI’s, were meant to solve crimes not get personally involved with them. Frankly, the man elevates the status of the lab and that’s that. His social skills are positively idiotic, how he actually gets himself anywhere in press releases I have yet to sit down and work out. My team is still the more successful out of the two, we follow a strict open, solve and snap shut procedure which leaves absolutely no time for anything extra like, oh, let’s say, perusing personal relationships with a hooker. That stokes is more trouble than he’s worth and the same goes for Brown, Sidle, Willows, the whole lot of them.

But, back to evil, by dictionary definition it is straight flat something that is morally bad or wrong. I have to say, I agree. What I deal with every day is evil, murdering someone, committing an act of homicide is morally wrong. It is not by any means a morally right thing to kill people for anything in any way shape or form. Yes, there are exceptions, but those exceptions, like turning off life support or stem cell research are for the betterment of others or the person being exterminated. It is no use to a brain dead, fully paralysed person to continue living with no chance of ever waking up again to live when there is no reason. The same goes for the aforementioned research, highly controversial I know but, it is for the betterment of society. If scientists could unlock the key to a better way of life for the victims of the cruel acts of the world such as car accidents, attacks or accidental self inflicted wounds then it is in my opinion and surely many others that it is worth using what is needed to achieve that goal. There are untold results it could have, improvement of the quality of life and all that sick stirring crap.

As for what is good. Well, again, back to the dictionary because it is concrete known facts and I’d rather use that because I don’t have time to give you my own definitions. The dictionary defines good as a valuable, or useful part or aspect. Once again, I agree with this on the basis that if I do I can finish this off and move on with my life. Good is what I do, I do good by solving the crimes accurately and not altering evidence. I have to honour the rules of CSI everyday when I go to work to do this “good”. I keep doing this “good” by further more solving the case, or like I said solving the crime. Good is done to the families of the victim or victims because of my actions. I could go on forever about the aspects of this “good” but once again I will not. Good is precisely the definition, it is valuable because it is for the betterment of something, it is useful because it does something for the betterment of something and it is useful because of the combined parts and aspects of what goes into making something deemed with the title good.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 22: Question 22

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 364


Who is your personal role model?


Why people have role models is something that vaguely eludes me even though I know the correct and accurate answer to why they choose to look up to some often successful figure. People who have role models are weak minded, just like people who day dream. They are basing their thoughts on looking up to a person they will probably never be. Why do they need to look up to an elusive character is questionable. Are they mindless idiots like most of this man made world? Or, are they simply looking to this figure in times of need and crisis in thought that it will inspire them with the hope and will to keep going? It is both of these reasons that make up the complete reason of why fickle minded people have role models. They are far to weak in all areas to provide their needs for themselves so; instead they rely on something or someone to do it for them. Some imbeciles might call it aspiring; I call it slacking off and lazy. When they are hero worshipping something, following it’s way of life, emulating this role models particular behavioural or possibly social roles, people are not doing the thing that they look so stupidly upwards to seek. They are not living, finding the answers; instead, they are just paying attention to a particularly false hope or dream. Up until now, I will say, I did not know it had developed into a “personal” role model aspect of things. Of course you are asking me, who is my role model and for that to be asked it does not hurt to add in the word personal to be even more direct. Please, spare me, you’re trying to add in big words to make this simpleton like question sound just that bit smarter. Well, it didn’t work and no, I’m not sorry. People should not be as nosey as this thus why I am pleased to say I can give an answer that will go directly against the nature of most of intended answers that will be most likely given to this question. I don’t have a role model, it is unnecessary bullshit.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 23: Question 23

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 346


What would constitute a "perfect" evening for you?


Critically my evenings have been the same since birth with the exception that, as I grew older some things contained in them changed but nothing to drastic as there is still a simple decades old plan to them. Without order there is chaos and since I am ordered, unlike some other people, I have managed to avoid disaster in living because of this. Here is a basic plan of my evening. Perfect because it is set out in an orderly, concise and proper fashion. It’s in UMT so get used to it.

1755 Hrs: Collect both personal and work related items.
1800 Hrs: Sign “clock” out of work and walk to car.
1802 Hrs: Unlock car, get in and drive out of car park before driving towards home.
1820 Hrs: Possible delay due to Traffic: Arrive at house, collect possessions and get out of car.
1825 Hrs: Lock car, collect mail, walk inside and deposit items in appropriate places.
1830 Hrs: Prepare washing machine, put necessary clothing items in and switch on.
1845 Hrs: Prepare clothing and possessions for next day and dress into home attire.
1900 Hrs: Put washing into dryer and watch 1900 Hrs news.
1930 Hrs: Prepare meal for dinner.
1950 Hrs: Eat meal with a glass of water.
2005 Hrs: Finish meal, wash up and clean away plates, cup and other utensils.
2020 Hrs: Collect Newspaper from mailbox, turn on sprinklers and water other plants.
2035 Hrs: Go inside with newspaper, make coffee.
2040 Hrs: Switch of sprinklers.
2045 Hrs: Sit down on couch in living room, read Newspaper and drink coffee.
2115 Hrs: Wash cup, take shower, change into night attire and brush teeth.
2130 Hrs: Watch the 2130 Hrs news.
2200 Hrs: Go to bed with book, turn on bed side lamp and read.
2230 Hrs: Place book on bed stand, take clothes out of dryer and fold before packing clothing away in draws and closet.
2240 Hrs: Go to toilet, return to bed, pick up book and read.
2300 Hrs: Switch off bed side lamp and go to sleep.

Like any god given person I do change this schedule sometimes and when the time is optimal I do go out but essentially I do the same thing and it suites me fine because nothing will go or ever has gone wrong with it.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 24: Question 24

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 320


If you could invent a holiday, what and when would it be? What special traditions would take place on that day?


I was born in Las Vegas, I grew up in Las Vegas, and, I have hardly ever left Las Vegas. Only then it was for conferences and seminars, essential in my training as a CSI. I had to be present to learn from them, and I did so. Now, that I rarely have to attend conferences any more, I do not have the desire to leave my home for I am holding down a job quite ably and have no intention of leaving it for a holiday in some foreign place. I do not “imagine” or “invent” such things as a holiday or “special traditions” for some god pitying “special day” because I do not have the time. I also do not the reason or want to become such an imaginative little slacker like some people who do as such are. Unlike some, I see a greater purpose to life, to do my work as a public servant instead of wasting valuable government time daydreaming it away down the plughole.

I do not have any intentions of taking time off work for such a god dammed supposed “relaxing” waste of time because any of the idiots who might temporarily take my place would more than certainly stuff it up and screw somehow with my impeccable record. I don’t take a break from my work because unlike Grissom I don’t do anything to get myself put on ordered leave or for that matter cornered by a serial killer. I am perfectly satisfied at the current moment with my job as I always have been and am entirely sure that there is no foreseeable chance of me becoming a day dreaming, crack smoking hippy in my very immediate, near or upcoming future. If that changes however, which I remind you it won’t I will leave you a message with FedEx and hopefully you’ll be able to read it, if you’re smart enough.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 25: Question 25

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 672


What's a typical day for you?


Your questions are getting quite repetitive aren’t they? I actually wouldn’t be surprised is you were rendered unable to answer that seeing as from the word go you’ve never really displayed yourself to be overly smart or cunning for that matter. But, I’ll humour you once more by deceivably repeating myself for approximately 0.21% of this answer as I am assuming, naturally correctly that you’re very dense and easily deceived. You present yourself as such and I gather as such that you posses these qualities which you more than obviously do.

Well here we go, thanks to you, again.

0600 Hrs: Wake up, switch alarm clock off and go to toilet.
0610 Hrs: Prepare bowl of bran cereal and milk for breakfast, pour glass of orange juice.
0613 Hrs: Eat breakfast.
0619 Hrs: Finish breakfast, wash up and clean away plate, cup and any other utensils.
0622 Hrs: Brush teeth.
0628 Hrs: Dress into work clothes, collect possessions needed for day.
0633 Hrs: Prepare lunch, exit house with possessions and lunch, lock house.
0640 Hrs: Unlock car, put possessions and lunch in, get in car, drive out of driveway and towards work.
0655 Hrs: Possible delay due to Traffic: Arrive at work, collect possessions, and get out of car.
0700 Hrs: Lock car, walk inside, sign “clock” in to work.
0705 Hrs: Go to office, set out possessions for day ahead.
0710 Hrs: Make sure all staff are present, call meeting in meeting room, collect necessary papers and walk to break room.
0715 Hrs: Assign cases to staff, take case for self and go out on location, either alone or together with one or more people depending on severity of case.
1300 Hrs: If no cases that needed assistance, stayed in office and generally around the lab for most of the time working. If out on location, relative time to arrive back for lunch and second half of shift.
1330 Hrs: Finish lunch break, call meeting in meeting room, collect necessary papers and walk to break room.
1335 Hrs: Assign cases to staff, take case for self and go out on location, either alone or together with one or more people depending on severity of case.
1700 Hrs: If no cases that needed assistance, stayed in office and generally around the lab for most of the time working. If out on location, relative time to arrive back for end of shift.
1715 Hrs: Finish up paperwork for the day.
1750 Hrs: Hand over necessary papers to Nightshift staff
1755 Hrs: Collect both personal and work related items.
1800 Hrs: Sign “clock” out of work and walk to car.
1802 Hrs: Unlock car, get in and drive out of car park before driving towards home.
1820 Hrs: Possible delay due to Traffic: Arrive at house, collect possessions and get out of car.
1825 Hrs: Lock car, collect mail, walk inside and deposit items in appropriate places.
1830 Hrs: Prepare washing machine, put necessary clothing items in and switch on.
1845 Hrs: Prepare clothing and possessions for next day and dress into home attire.
1900 Hrs: Put washing into dryer and watch 1900 Hrs news.
1930 Hrs: Prepare meal for dinner.
1950 Hrs: Eat meal with a glass of water.
2005 Hrs: Finish meal, wash up and clean away plates, cup and other utensils.
2020 Hrs: Collect Newspaper from mailbox, turn on sprinklers and water other plants.
2035 Hrs: Go inside with newspaper, make coffee.
2040 Hrs: Switch of sprinklers.
2045 Hrs: Sit down on couch in living room, read Newspaper and drink coffee.
2115 Hrs: Wash cup, take shower, change into night attire and brush teeth.
2130 Hrs: Watch the 2130 Hrs news.
2200 Hrs: Go to bed with book, turn on bed side lamp and read.
2230 Hrs: Place book on bed stand, take clothes out of dryer and fold before packing clothing away in draws and closet.
2240 Hrs: Go to toilet, return to bed, pick up book and read.
2300 Hrs: Switch off bed side lamp and go to sleep.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 26: Question 26

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 671


The world will end tomorrow. What do you do today?


Again and again, really, I’d expect better of a person, even one with an IQ as low as you have.

0600 Hrs: Wake up, switch alarm clock off and go to toilet.
0610 Hrs: Prepare bowl of bran cereal and milk for breakfast, pour glass of orange juice.
0613 Hrs: Eat breakfast.
0619 Hrs: Finish breakfast, wash up and clean away plate, cup and any other utensils.
0622 Hrs: Brush teeth.
0628 Hrs: Dress into work clothes, collect possessions needed for day.
0633 Hrs: Prepare lunch, exit house with possessions and lunch, lock house.
0640 Hrs: Unlock car, put possessions and lunch in, get in car, drive out of driveway and towards work.
0655 Hrs: Possible delay due to Traffic: Arrive at work, collect possessions, get out of car.
0700 Hrs: Lock car, walk inside, sign “clock” in to work.
0705 Hrs: Go to office, set out possessions for day ahead.
0710 Hrs: Make sure all staff are present, call meeting in meeting room, collect necessary papers and walk to break room.
0715 Hrs: Assign cases to staff, take case for self and go out on location, either alone or together with one or more people depending on severity of case.
1300 Hrs: If no cases that needed assistance, stayed in office and generally around the lab for most of the time working. If out on location, relative time to arrive back for lunch and second half of shift.
1330 Hrs: Finish lunch break, call meeting in meeting room, collect necessary papers and walk to break room.
1335 Hrs: Assign cases to staff, take case for self and go out on location, either alone or together with one or more people depending on severity of case.
1700 Hrs: If no cases that needed assistance, stayed in office and generally around the lab for most of the time working. If out on location, relative time to arrive back for end of shift.
1715 Hrs: Finish up paperwork for the day.
1750 Hrs: Hand over necessary papers to Nightshift staff
1755 Hrs: Collect both personal and work related items.
1800 Hrs: Sign “clock” out of work and walk to car.
1802 Hrs: Unlock car, get in and drive out of car park before driving towards home.
1820 Hrs: Possible delay due to Traffic: Arrive at house, collect possessions and get out of car.
1825 Hrs: Lock car, collect mail, walk inside and deposit items in appropriate places.
1830 Hrs: Prepare washing machine, put necessary clothing items in and switch on.
1845 Hrs: Prepare clothing and possessions for next day and dress into home attire.
1900 Hrs: Put washing into dryer and watch 1900 Hrs news.
1930 Hrs: Prepare meal for dinner.
1950 Hrs: Eat meal with a glass of water.
2005 Hrs: Finish meal, wash up and clean away plates, cup and other utensils.
2020 Hrs: Collect Newspaper from mailbox, turn on sprinklers and water other plants.
2035 Hrs: Go inside with newspaper, make coffee.
2040 Hrs: Switch of sprinklers.
2045 Hrs: Sit down on couch in living room, read Newspaper and drink coffee.
2115 Hrs: Wash cup, take shower, change into night attire and brush teeth.
2130 Hrs: Watch the 2130 Hrs news.
2200 Hrs: Go to bed with book, turn on bed side lamp and read.
2230 Hrs: Place book on bed stand, take clothes out of dryer and fold before packing clothing away in draws and closet.
2240 Hrs: Go to toilet, return to bed, pick up book and read.
2300 Hrs: Switch off bed side lamp and go to sleep.

If the world was going to end tomorrow then I would still do the same thing I do everyday. I would still have to attend work, so I would attend work, I would still have to eat and bathe and do menial chores so I would still eat and bathe and do menial chores. Any person who runs around like a headless chicken just because “hypothetically”, the world was going to end is an idiot, we all die eventually.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 27: Question 27

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 616


What have you most regretted losing?


It still amuses me, how you can run around vaguely asking people this question, come to ask me only to see my answer lit up in amber flames as I burn it into ash. This is another one of those questions I will answer soulfully for the sake of myself and no other before burning the very paper it is written on and disposing of it. I will assure you that further more I have taken the precaution of writing this in my own house, in my office, at my desk for I really don’t have any or enough faith that if I were to do such an activity at work that nobody would disturb me. The imbeciles always do, no matter how many times I tell them to mind their own business they still come barging into my office like they own the place and I fear, no, know that they would somehow get their grimy little mitts into this as well. My team is the better of the two yes but like the rest of them they are nosey.

All the “major” important things I have lost in my life I have regretted losing for I am not stupid enough to waste my time worrying over unimportant lost possessions such as a pen or a scrap of paper. I regret partially because I know it is somewhat though my own faults that such unfortunate events have happened to me. I do not regret them fully, minimally if anything because to be strong a person has to get on with his life and that is precisely what I have done; I have gotten on with my life.

What I regret oddly enough out of all the important things I have lost is losing my own life. Of course, I still have one essentially, anybody who lives and breathes has a life, but I am talking about life on another plane, one that you would certainly find hard to understand the meaning of. Life is not only living physically it is about the mental state of the body and soul, once you lose your mental body or your mental soul you do not have a life. In my case I lost my mental soul, I lost my soul so I do not life, I do not live. Sometimes I regret losing it and, it is the thing I have regretted losing the most but most of the time I just keep working because of sheer determination and strength. If I stopped and lost it, lost my fight, and became a blubbering mess of tears I would, without a doubt put my job in jeopardy because by job does not allow for weakness. Which is why Grissom is so unsuccessful, he is weak. Some people choose to call it a loss of feeling or caring, I however still term it as such because I still am forced unfortunately, everyday, to feel and care about something. Whether that something is a corpse on the autopsy table or a family member I have to act like I feel and care otherwise if I did not that is another thing that could force my position into a possible troubled aspect of being.

Basically, I regret losing my life, I regret losing all the things that I once considered good and important but just because life has deal me some hardships it does not mean I am going to stop functioning. I am smarter than those who do because I knew and still have the knowledge to keep going and to never stop.

My life, my parents, my wife, I regret it if you are putting it into the question’s context.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 28: Question 28

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 460


How do you view commitment?


To quote Grissom, “If you chase two rabbits, you lose them both.". It’s an idiotic thing to they, that’s what it is because we all know he’s just dying to get his hands on Sidle. Frankly, it’s sickening; he should either leave it or get on with it because while he’s making up his god dammed mind he holds up the rest of his staff while doing it. While I don’t wish his team any more luck than they already don’t have, and mine is still the more successful of the two, I’m the one who’s going to be affected if he screws up somehow because of his “lovesickness” and gets killed. He shouldn’t be running around in circles causing even more trouble than the previous options of do or don’t could have made. Grissom should be working just like the rest of us, paying full attention not diving it up between his personal and work life.

My view is basically the same for commitment, either commit and be happy about it or don’t commit and be happy about it. Don’t run around in circles trying to find the answer because believe you me, if you do that, there is none. Leave it even later and there will be less than no answer. I don’t have any need or desire to become committed again by marriage or infected by want for another person because I have sampled it once and right now I am quite satisfied with what I have. People, Grissom for a prime example, should be happy with what they have. People are born, they grow up, they learn and they get a job, the way they choose to lead that simple life is up to them, if they screw up and become unhappy then it is their fault, not other people’s. If they screw up and are unhappy then so be it because they heaped it upon themselves because of what they wanted or desired.

Love sick people are brainless idiots, they want something and if they do not get it, per say fail in their quest for completeness they are left unhappy and unfulfilled. I honestly think that love and all this commitment shit is a load of bull crap because it only brings unhappiness. Screw the fact that some people succeed and are happy with what they have and the majority of people who love, fail and are unhappy with what they have. It’s just a large circle of failure to me so I have no concern with it. On any day of the weak, year or my entire lifetime, I’d rather be strong, have my job and be successful as I already am, over being weak and getting my heart and brain screwed with.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 29: Question 29

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 596


Would you choose to live forever if you had the choice?


If I had the choice, option, whatever blasted way you put it I would not choose forever. I do not want to live forever because I would already know my future and I live in the current moment, not the past or the future, the present. If I lived forever I would already know the outcome of anything that might happen to me, whether I won or lost I would still live, if I got run over I would still live, if I lost all my money by some freak accident then I would still live. Life would become boring if I was to live forever, nothing surprises me now but at least I get to wake up everyday and know that I won’t be doing that for the rest of my life, at least I know that one day I will die whether I like it or not. I know that when I wake up, at the end of that day I will be one day closer to death. I do not like the idea of death by all means but I favour the known fact that one day, many years from now I will not wake up and because of my ceasing to exist that I will not have to do anything ever again. I like the idea of life and I enjoy living because I get to do what I have made myself work towards. I have, after hard work, with its own different trials and tribulations, become a high ranking, successful, hard working CSI. I have to think everyday and put thought into the victims, into solving their story. I don’t get personally involved and I don’t screw about with other people’s life. I see the greater point to life, hard work, hardy effort will go into making a greater reward when I retire. If I work hard now then it all comes later. If I lived forever, well, I’d work hard, retire and then what? Nothing, I couldn’t essentially go back and do it again. Even though age brings wisdom I think when I die I’ll have more than enough “wisdom” or what I call knowledge to satisfy myself. Living forever would only bring more knowledge, more unnecessary crap that I don’t need to get in my way.

If I lived forever, there would be no point, because eventually the lab would find one way or another to get rid of me and I would have to move on as I watched the people around me, who I had worked with more most of my life, drop like flies around me. I don’t want to watch the people I put my trust and faith into everyday grow older, and older while I was going to remain living. I don’t want that. I don’t want to have to find something to occupy myself with for the rest of my “immortal” life if I did become immortal. It wouldn’t reap all the benefits the movies give it, immortality in unessential. People should be happy with the time they’ve got and not wish for a longer time. Even though my aunt will die before I do, simply because of how old she is, I wouldn’t want to live forever to know that for eternity there would be no one else there that I could trust. She will die, yes, but then I will follow some years down the track and die to. That’s what I like; when I die I don’t have to live.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 30: Question 30

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 389


What would your dream occupation be?


Dream occupation? Oh please, let me be sick. I see today you’re going for the pansy approach. Are you seriously hoping that this, this, will win you a few of the cast votes? Or are you looking for some supporters? Are you trying to win them over for some reason? I hope to god not because this crap is sickening. General advice, take the flower out of your ass and get on with life, you’re wasting your time here.

I worked for years to gain my university degrees, I worked extremely hard to get where I am and I did not divert from that course for anything. Now, if people want something, and it’s on my shift, they come to me, they don’t go in search of someone else, they come to me. Not always straight to me, on given days the people I work with prove themselves to be unsatisfactory in their abilities and I do question that sometimes but not for long. I have confidence and faith in my own team. They are a bunch of the best bred people you ever did see and if one leaves we find an equally good replacement. The Dayshift record is clean; we have had no fatalities as of yet under as long as I have been in the position of Dayshift Supervisor. I prevent that by doing what Grissom misses out on sometimes, I’m careful, I’m methodical, I don’t allow my mind to slip up and make silly mistakes. The same goes for my staff, they do not make mistakes, we start the job, we process the job and we get the job done. As an unfortunate glitch in life we do have our unsolved cases, but unlike Grissom’s fish shaped corkboard, my case files are stored away in an orderly fashion. I’m organised and he’s not, he cares to much about other people. In our profession self preservation is the key, equally shared with the preservation of others. A balance has to be provided by us between those two things, he overbalances on the caring about other people bit.

The main job of a CSI is to document, identify and collect physical evidence at a crime scene. We are support personnel for the investigator in charge of the case. That is my “dream occupation.” I want no different.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 31: Question 31

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 415


What makes you jealous and how do you deal with it?


Short answer, I don’t get jealous and I don’t feel jealousy, ever.

Long answer, why the hell would I get jealous of anything or anyone anyway? Civilization is meant to learn from history’s past and its mistakes so we can better improve our way of life for the present and the future. People look at the past and what has happened in order to provide betterment for the people of today in hope that in turn people of future generations to come will have an even better way of life. If the theory is that if we learn from are past we can make our present and future lives better than people of the future can learn from a better past than the past previous. In this way each generation is slowly becoming more gifted, more advanced and more privileged. The point of the whole betterment lesson is not to make the same mistakes.

I am not afraid to say that I have made some minor inaccurate calculations in my past because I have done so and seen the consequences of my actions as a result. I am practised at life in the first place because I was alive to see those consequential things happen to me and the world around me. In my experience I have learnt that if a person gets jealous of something or someone and they act on that jealousy in a criminal context than they have let the “little green monster win”. Those people lose control and they murder an innocent victim, no person deserves ever to be murdered. Why be jealous when I know the extreme results?

In my experience I have also learnt that it does not pay to be jealous of someone or something so I do not do as such. In my wok as a CSI I have to be fairly indifferent on cases until I know for sure who the victim is and who is the rightly accused. While that does not last for long I still have to keep an eye up and open for the victim and the evidence and an equally wide eye to study and look out for the felon who committed the crime in the first place. If I let jealousy get in my way and blind me then I would be blinded from doing my job and processing it properly. I don’t focus on anything else but my job; I don’t let anything, especially jealousy get in my way.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 32: Question 32

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 446


What is your weapon of choice?


My weapon of choice, my weapon of choice. Well, since, essentially I only have one choice I’ll have to choose my handgun. Wither way, if I had more than one weapon or not I would still choose my handgun. When I was being training to become a CSI I was taught and shown how to handle and fire a handgun safely. I was a good marksman from the word go and I still am today. Like any other CSI I do carry a gun for safety reasons. I draw my gun under strict guidelines, as there are ones to when a CSI or officer can draw gun and open a shot at a person. Firstly I would draw it as a warning, where a situation I am present at starts to posses more danger to a live then it should be, the level of danger that would be considered normal is none at all. If the offending person increases the danger level of the situation by defying my request to stand and desist by continuing to threaten any number of lives or something of a similar type I will shoot them. I wouldn’t hesitate to shoot to take or hinder a life. Unlike some I know I could take a life. I also know I wouldn’t regret it. I would only be shooting if I knew I was going to be correct in my actions. This wouldn’t happen any other way because I always have and always will abide by the rules of my job and of the law. I am prepared to shoot a person and I honestly wouldn’t feel guilty about it because the action would have been done in any circumstance for the right reasons.

I carry my gun for protection, I use it wisely and I keep it clean and functional. If I let a fellow co worker fall harm because I did not use it then my authority, ability and stability as a CSI would surely be questioned. I am not going to risk my neck by shooting people willy nilly because I have worked damn well hard to get where I am and by no means am I stupid enough to do anything so idiotic as to kill without reason. I favour my gun because I can use it well, I handle it well and I am well practised with it. If I have to defend I am assured because of this knowledge I can defend. That is what matters doesn’t it? Solving the crime and preventing anybody else from getting hurt? I’m not afraid to 'pack heat', for those of you who don’t know, it means carry a gun.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 33: Question 33

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 705


Money, fame or happiness, you can only have one... what would you rather have and why?


I wouldn’t choose fame because of the pure reasons that I neither want fame in my life or to have it remotely anywhere near me. Fame is an unnecessary part of life, it is solely based on looks and acting ability rather than brains and it has created a whole world capturing matrix of obsessionally thin woman and idiotically strong men. There are a few good actors, yes, I will give you that but some of these new comer people couldn’t act for corn cobs. I deal with dead bodies, nearly every single day of my life and I do not intend to change that. Remotely how a CSI could become famous for doing such a task is something that reaches beyond me, though I suppose with your simple mind and slow with you have surely figured out some bizarre answer to that query.

I wouldn’t choose happiness because I am already as happy and as satisfied as I could be. I don’t need any more happiness in my life and to have it constantly or accessible most of the time is something that would not suit me. Once again, back to my job. I like my job but sometimes I have to act and morbid and keep a straight face when I deal with the things and people I come across, whether it be alive or dead. It would not help if I did not feel somewhat that plain and morbid way because if I was happy, somehow it would show it. To be a CSI you have to be strong and strong willed with a keen eye. I am all of these qualities and something else that is useful to a CSI is keeping his feelings in check. If I went around slap happy for most of the time people would think I have cracked and I doubt I would be holding down the job for long after that. CSIs have to keep their feelings in order because it is one of the most important side qualifications of the job, we have to be unaffected every time when ewe process a body, whether the cause of death was asphyxiation or mutilation, we have to not feel and feel at the right times. There has to be a balance with not feeling but caring at the top of the line order.

Out of the three, I would choose money. Why? Because it is the most useful to myself out of the three options. I am quite content with my pay and I always spend my money wisely so there is always a bit left over, even if it is minimal. Living like I do has its advantages, I do not use much money anyway, a small meal for breakfast lunch and dinner each day and the cost of the bills. There is not much extra that I entirely desire to acquire since there is nothing frankly that interests me enough into putting my well earned money into buying it. Some people live to spend money; I on the other hand spend money to live. Nothing entirely amountable there, I maintain a well led lifestyle, I buy things that are satisfactory to myself, I use them and get on with it, get on with living. I do not scrape to make ends meet. Money wouldn’t go astray though and as I said, it’s the most useful to myself out of the three equally hypothetical, brain dead options. If I had extra money it could be stored away for later use and put to work when I absolutely need it. Although I would not change in the least and I would still use the money I have as I always do it would not harm me or any others if I had some extra sitting in the bank, collecting interest. This is, purely hypothetical of course, I am not a daydreamer, I am merely just trying to get you off my back and preferably, most suitably shove you out the door. I can say, I’d rather not have any of the options, I am not a daydreamer and I am not going to spend my time wasting it on petty thinking that would invoke such thoughts.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 34: Question 34

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 519


Is there any truth to the saying: keep your friends close, and your enemies closer? Do you have enemies? Do you have more friends than enemies?


I do not think that there is any truth to the statement: keep your friends close, and your enemies closer. Both parties should be kept at an equal distance, or closeness, depending on whether you look at the glass as half full or half empty. This is because I like to keep an eye on both sorts of people, I do not worry that my friend will turn into my enemy or my enemy into my friend because I know that will not change, they just deserve equal attention. My friend actually deserves more attention than my enemy does. Grissom provides me with no major worries or troubles, I have the advantage over him really because actually, under that oh so bland exterior he’s just a ticking anger time bomb. The coffee pot incident for example, it’s not my fault he has a short fuse and decided to take it out on the break room equipment items that the lab provides us with. Apart from that, quite rightly I think the man deserves to collect all the ripe consequences from his foolhardy mistakes as possible. How he ever manages to make them in the first place is beyond me. How can a person be so weak, so stupid? I mean, yes, he elevates the lab and I get benefits from association but otherwise what the hell is going on with him. It’s clear he’s head over heels for Sidle yet nobody does anything to stop him and he doesn’t do anything to stop himself. That’s his weakness; he cares to god dammed much to be a real good and proper CSI.

As for enemies, my one adversary I guess is really Grissom, nobody really colours right up in comparison to him, they just pale in comparison. The man’s uniquely annoying yet strangely amusing at the same time. Annoying because, he just has that air about him, he thinks that he can succeed when he fails, he lets his feelings get in the way, he loses site of things sometimes, he loses focus, he does a lot of things he should be trying to not to do. Really, not exactly what I’d call a perfect CSI. Of friends I also have one, my aunt is the sole person I trust enough to call a friend, not any of the people I work with, not people I went to school with, just her. She is the most trustworthy, hard working woman I know and I respect her for that and she deserves my respect as such. This leads me to the next part of the three question question; I do not have more friends than enemies or more enemies than friends. Like I have said, I have one enemy and one friend and further more I have done you the favour of naming them for you. This is so you do not have to pry any deeper into my personal life than you already have done so in your inefficient quest to seek out my personal information. I would highly recommend that you leave well be now. Good? Now piss off.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 35: Question 35

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 500


Do you believe in an afterlife?


No, point blank no. I believe that I was born because it is proven fact by the evidence that I own a birth certificate, I believe people live because they there is evidence that they can be robbed of life and killed. There is no evidence however, that is scientific fact, which proves the existence of an afterlife. Just because some dope high hippy decides to spread the word that he has seen “the other side” it does not mean that is actually real. Unfortunately some human minds are weak, they feel the need to group together in flocks and follow one another till death do them part. There are the particular types of people that follow this person or people who believe they have see “the other life” because they are led by persuasion and con artistry that what they are hearing is true to definite. The people who follow are weak minded and needy, unsatisfied with their own lives and think they have found the answer while they are actually just seeking out and finding the completely wrong answer. The people who run these groups are most often needy, unfulfilled losers in society who have some crack pot ideas and just enough stupidity to get them off the ground. I refuse to stoop to such a low and dirty level and believe all this shit. If it’s not hippies it’s people who get so screwed around with during surgery or near death experiences that they are so grateful for their life being returned to them that they actually believe all their drug or pain infused hallucination fantasies. Even with these supposed “messiahs” and powerful bringers of answers and the people who get so screwed up during their life that they begin to hear and see things there is still no evidence. These crackpots aren’t solid, proven fact evidence so there still is nothing to prove anything. There is a lack of solid evidence that there is an afterlife and I base my answer partially upon that and partially upon my other thoughts.

What I think had still remained the same since I started answering this equally shitty question. Putting it very simple I will give it to you short even so you can try and grasp an understanding of it. I do not believe in the afterlife because there is no proven fact, I do not believe in the afterlife because there is too much to disprove this theory and I do not believe in the after life because when I die I know I will die and not continue onwards in some ethereal plane. I do not believe in that crap, when I die I die just as every single person on this Earth eventually will. We do not “continue onwards” when our heart and brain stop to function, we as conscious people with a conscious thought and mind just cease to exist, cease to happen, even if our bodies still do remain physically in occurrence afterwards.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 36: Question 36

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 428


What is the most important value you can pass onto your child?


Look at this question, I mean for god’s sake what imaginary crap are you planning to come up with next? I, don’t, have, children. I never will have and I never want to have some grubby little vermin running around my household. I do not have the desire, the urge, the anything to have a family, especially children. The way I lead my life at this current moment suites me perfectly and I do not have any god dammed intention of changing that. I go to the lab and work hard each day at my job, I earn money as a result and I use it to buy the essentials. I do not have any inkling to go and spend it on some dirty little eight year old with a hangnail. In my experience I have come across cases ranging from decapitation to the equally complex strangulation and by and by even some children’s cases. These children do not deserve to die and I would happily fully back up that point on any day of the week but I do not want one of my own. I run myself through a strict routine everyday to ensure every aspect is covered and the introduction of two possible people at the least would surely prove to be a large interruption in that. I have seen people with children, met them at various occasions and get togethers I have been forced to go to and the children, unless they are asleep, are always badly behaved, they run around like maniacs, destroying things, breaking things, making obscenely loud noises, I have seen it all, really. Personally it’s sickening to see all these love struck people waiting for the “pitter patter of little feet”, so much wrapped up in each other to care for much else. For those idiots who have children, they think their offspring are just far too perfect and innocent to possibly commit any nasty little children’s acts. Screw all the boys will be boys and my girl is as good as gold crap, I hate children, they’re attention grabbing, little dimwits who are so reliant on their parents that they can’t do anything at all for themselves their self made idiots. I do not want one and quite fortunately I will not be having one, so you can go take your idiotic question and shove off. I am quite serious, I do not like children and I would rather you take your own grimy little mitts out of my personal life and take them elsewhere to bother somebody else.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 37: Question 37

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 358


Would you rather lead or follow? Why? What role do you see yourself playing out over your life, leader or follower?


I would rather lead then follow, I always have done in one form or another and I always will continue to for the rest the time I have left on this world. Please, get your questions around the right way; it will make you seem like less of an idiot. I would rather lead than follow because I am a naturally born leader, I have the intelligence to ably take control of any situation my work pits me against and I have full training in areas such as hostage and suicide negotiation. I know full well, unlike Grissom, Stokes or even Willows what areas my job can and does not allow me to go in to or get involved with so if I am faced with something to do I know I can do it to the best of my ability, which is the best. In life I do see and already have seen myself play out the role of leader many, many times in various different areas. I know this is because I am self reliant and this independence from others puts me at the top of their picking pile. I can function equally well in both a team or by myself, even if I do prefer to work alone. I don’t allow petty things like personal involvement with a victim or fellow co-worker to worm their way into my life and if some people do then more often than not, when they can’t clean up their own mess they come looking to me as a first resort. That what makes me and my team strong. I’m strong and can function without hesitation or restrictions and they follow that example obediently. As for Grissom, he gets to personally involved in cases and he cares just way too much for the victim, so, his team follows along. A team follows their master and leader, if the leader sets a good, hard willed example than the people following him will follow in that example. Such is the Dayshift people on my team; we are the better of the two, unlike him and his fickle minded, easily influenced little cronies.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 38: Question 38

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 480


How do you handle disappointment?


I do not “handle” disappointment, if I find myself disappointed, god forbid that that will ever happen, I would sort through the problem in an orderly fashion and solve it. I expect the worst of people which serves me well most of the time because I don’t get my hopes up about people succeeding I am not disappointed when they fail and satisfied when they succeed. People like Grissom and his team are respectable people and I give him some credit for the success of this lab but we don’t get along for obvious reasons. Even though we both succeed in our given jobs as Dayshift and Nightshift Supervisor of the LVPD CSI division I am still above him because I have the stronger of the better qualities while he has the stronger of the qualities that are not needed in the job. I am more organised and calmer than he ever is or will be, he feels too much and I just pass past him and get ahead of him while I get on with the job at hand.

By expecting the worst of people I am never disappointed. Sure, when people make mistakes at a crime scene I am forced to be disappointed in them because they should know better and I handle the situation by disciplining them but it is what any other person would do in my position. I have to be disappointed in them and act as such because otherwise they would get away with it and make the same mistake over and over again until something worse happens As for personally disappointed, that has never surfaced in all my years but I will still tell you how I would handle it if it should rear its god forsaken head in my life. I would do as I would with any matter, discipline it, sort it through and straighten it out until a satisfactory situation has been reached. I am methodical and accurate in my ways, each case is processed until it is solved or has come to an absolute end and with the dead end cases I still make a healthy habit of checking on the few I posses every now and then to see what I can do with them, so, eventually, each case is solved. I am a hard worker and a hard man; I know how to handle myself and how to act in a situation such as the area of disappointment. Rarely though am I truly disappointed in something because if they give me their worst then I have expected that and am not surprised, if they give me their best which I would expect them to give then so be it. If they fuck up, I’m not going to be all pansy about it; I’m just going to get on with my life like any other person should do.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 39: Question 39

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 581


Do you confront your problems head on, or ignore them until you have to do something? Do you procrastinate?


In my line of work it does not help if I ignore “my” problems, in that case the cases I deal with until I have to do something, if I am given a case, whatever the case is, it does not mater. Whether it is a high profile case for example something involving some prosperous Las Vegas show girl or a low profile case such as a bum on the street I still have to process and solve it and proceed with the next one. I can’t stand around, whistling with my hands in my pockets while people fall before me because that would be one of the most inconsiderate and stupid things for a CSI of my status especially to do. I need to, I have to, confront the problem of the case at hand, head on and do something immediately because the more I wait the less time and the less information and evidence I will have at my disposal to use and process.

Even with personal problems, of which I have none at the current moment, I deal with it the same way. Taking minore examples, If I need to water the garden I water the garden, if I need to eat I eat, all these tiny things are important because they are needed to live a healthy and respectable life. If I let myself or my house get derelict then no sooner would someone utter a word about me and my whole world could me precariously tipped and crumbled. This is why I maintain such a high standard of living, because I am the only one who can do it properly for myself. I don’t take the soft liberty of letting other people do things for me because I do not take the chance of running inaccuracies over my lifestyle, the high standard of which I have worked so hard to achieve. If something needs to be done around my household then I am the only person who is able enough or has enough of my trust to do and accomplish the given task. That suits me perfectly fine because if something arises that needs something done to it to make it normal again then I do it immediately, like my work, I do not and can not leave it for the longer it is left the worse it threatens to get eventually so that it would get worse.

Yes, moving on to the second, I do not procrastinate because as I have already clearly stated, if any area with a problem in it, whether it be concerned with any possible work, personal or home related issues or any other of the areas in which trouble could be presented I confront it immediately head on. I do not leave my problems in the imaginary hope that they will go away, because if I had any they certainly, like anything else would not just disappear over night. Hell they could be softened with a good bit of conditioning but all the same that would not make them disappear. I face them with my own personal steadfast will and determination and go through them by the process of examining and correctly sorting them out then further more solving them. Procrastination is for the weak minded simpletons who are so afraid of life they force themselves to hide from it. I am no weak minded simpleton so I do not hide from life; I meet it with an equal courage.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 40: Question 40

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 458


Do you consider yourself to be adventurous?


One of the qualities a CSI has to posses is the desire to be adventurous when needed, for that; they also need to be determined and fearless. Surely we may not be entirely recognised people out in the big world but we are important because we provide the fatal tie togethers that can and most often do make the final deciding clamp on a case. The evidence findings that we to provide can make many things happen such as the decision of what person gets what, who is let off, who is captured and locked away and even sometimes the length or amount of their punishment. To be a CSI a person has to realise that they have to know something and not let it on to the wrong people, they have to be scrutinisingly careful when collecting and examining evidence, they have to be strong.

I am strong and I do hold and use quite often all of those qualities which I have so carefully named for you so you do not have the slightest possible chance of getting confused. I am adventurous because I get up every morning with the knowledge that, even though it is highly unlikely I could die that day. Every single person in the world could die this day or the next but I work in a job where, if people are to careful enough and let something slip through their systems then they can cause a domino effect and bring others down with them. I get up and continue with my job though, sure it is a rather unlikely chance that I will be injured or killed because I am careful and I take the proper precautions but the knowledge is still there. People as I have seen who are not as careful as I am or take the same attitude to things to suffer the consequences of their actions when something goes wrong. I watch carefully the track record of Grissom’s for my own personal amusement and I have seen Willows injured, Grissom himself threatened and Gribbs shot and killed amongst other slip ups of the Nightshift team. Comparing it to my own team and myself especially I am hardier then those other clowns, I get out there, I do the work and I don’t fear it. If I did fear then it would not be of use to me. I am being adventurous by going out on the scene, I am being adventurous by doing what I do. Maybe being adventurous doesn’t really take that much effort but I consider it to require a certain will and a certain hard mind, both of which I have, so yes, I am adventurous.

Got it? Get it? Good, now piss off.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 41: Question 41

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 520


Who has had the most influence on your life?


This is going to be the what? Yes, the third question I am being forced to burn because it contains personal information I do not want ever diverge to the likes of you or anyone else for that matter. It is mildly amusing to see you like this, once more, hoping so pitifully to get an answer and hopping around like the pansy filled person you are while you wait for it. To sad, well, no actually, that you won’t be getting an answer but be content, I feel no pity for you and you deserve no recognition or praise so you can actually just get on with your life and leave me be to continue onwards with mine.

I can not deny this question an answer forever, what I am writing is already my knowledge and my knowledge will always me with me for as long as I remain living on this Earth. The person who has had the most influence on my life has been my aunt, who I would ask you to cordially to call her Agatha, and also to leave out all the warm and fuzzy crap that the word cordially brings with it. Just be polite about her. Reasons for calling her by her first name being that she never has been the type of person to buy into all that aunt this and aunt that crap which some people seem to adore so disgustingly. It would be a likewise situation for myself if I was ever in the situation that any child or adult for that matter decided to call me uncle for some god forsaken reason.

She has had the most influence on my life because she has always been there for me; wherever I may go she is always there. As a child, when my mother and father weren’t there she was, my mother and father were never in my life much from when I was a smile child so she brought me up, took care of me. Although I disliked some things she made me do as a child, I see their point and I appreciated them now, some of those things, well, all, I do enjoy doing because of her. She taught me a lot about life, told me her stories, taught me life’s lesson. She was the mother that was never there for me, she came around to my activities as a child, saw me grow up into a teenager, and stood, still looking proudly as I got my high school results and went into and finished university. My aunt was also the father I never had, she taught me to be tough and hard and gave me a lot of rough and tumble experience. Although I might say I sometimes dislike to admit this, it is true, I owe everything to my aunt, Agatha brought me up, is always there when I need her and was and still is the parents I never had or really knew, but I know her well enough and that’s all I ever want and need to get on with my own life.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 42: Question 42

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 601


Does heartache make you stronger?


Two questions that I’m going to burn, in a row? Well I think you have truly passed the point at where this was horribly boring, I now think we’ve moved onto sleep inspiring. I will restate, I am going to burn this piece of paper like all the others I have burnt and I’m actually starting to think of burning the rest of these godforsaken papers as well. I’ll take the liberty of finishing the questions off once and for all just to know that I did finish this imbecilic task and didn’t stop halfway through it and give in to its utter stupidity.

Heartache in my opinion does make you stronger and for most cases, probably wiser as well. I should know because I’ve had enough of the experience to make a qualified statement about the matter. Heartbreak is unique, you know everywhere you go the next thing you could do could get it broken into a million tiny pieces again but you disregard that fact so, when it does happen you have been left unprepared for what to do. You sit there in your mind afterwards, wondering what went wrong, I continued on after my heartbreaks because I am a strong person and I am not just going to give up because life deals me a few sharp handed cards. But it is hard yet it gets easier everyday afterwards. If you suffer heartbreak enough times or majorly once or more then you become stronger and it is for the better. I continued on because I had to and I needed to and when it came again that my heart had been broken I was prepared and I did the same thing as I had before, I just kept going. That’s all really a person can do, you can’t go back and piece it together again because it is gone, sure a person can watch by the guidelines and hope it will get better without them doing anything but it is them and only them who can get after it. The key to that is continuing, by doing that more options are opened up for a person to do to ease the heartbreak and piece their heart’s and their life’s back together again I never have done anything particularly drastic to fix my heartbreak because getting on with life was a cure all for my particular case.

In my job, I can not let my emotions get in the way and I do not because I do not have any. I have learned from the many harsh lessons of my life that I do not need to feel to live, feeling for me is not essential any more or not as essential as it used to be. I chose to become unfeeling after a while because it is the only way I can get on with things, sure, there are brief moments that something sparks at my soul but they are brief and scarce. I have to feel in my job, I have to feel it is the right decision when I close a case, I have to feel what I am doing is right but for myself, often enough I scarcely feel anything anymore. But I’m happy about it and I couldn’t be happier because of it. Some people learn to feel again, choose to feel again, I’ve learnt to feel again after my heartbreaks but I choose not to feel. You can sit watching your life go by or you can jump back in, I jumped back in. I don’t feel because it’s what helps me survive.
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Theatrical Muse: Week 43: Question 43

Name: Conrad Ecklie

Fandom:
CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Word Count: 436


If you won the equivalent of $2,000, and had to spend it, what would you spend it on?


Personally I would deposit it in the bank because I do not have anything that I owe to anybody or anything in particular that I can not already buy with my own money. That does not mean by all means that I am rich, because I am not but I have enough money to get along with my life as safely and as comfortably as I desire to. Anyway, I do not desire very much in the ways of items other than food and clothing it is perfectly fine that I have the amount of money that I do have because it gets me what I need and possibly a little extra.

I will tell you for the umpteenth time before I answer this fiddley crap that I am not daydreaming of what I could do, I do not daydream as it is a waste of good time I could spend doing something else. I am merely answering this to get it out of my way so I can get back to my more important business activities. I really do think this is pointless, digging into other people’s personal lives when you know they have already warned you not to and no, I am not the type of pansy person that admires annoying determination. If I could not deposit it and use it at a later date I would first spend it on paying my next lot of house bills that would be due in such as water, gas, electrical and the like. Following that I would use some of the money to buy enough good food to last me for a suitable period of time. With that done I would put some of it into paying for my milk delivery for the next while and after that I would pay for my newspaper and magazine subscriptions a year ahead of time. With that done I would repeat the process with the bills again at once or possibly twice more and if there was any left I would repeat any of the other available options that I have previously named. Unlike some people I would have no intention of wasting the money, even if this is a hypothetical situation I still like to sound like the intelligent person I am, not like some idiot on an imaginary spending spree. Some people are queer and repelling folk, they dream and dream and while their time away doing nothing and wasting money in the process. I use my time productively and I use my money wisely, that is what makes me the better person above people like that.
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